Today has been a very emotional day. Literally i’ve felt angry, sad, very fucking sad. I went to work on barely any sleep since i closed last night and opened today. Threw up, this morning sickness is cray! Then my husband is all depressed bc yet again while deployed a family member passed this morning. And it hurts him he wasn’t able to be there. On top of that i had to rehome my precious baby girl. It seriously broke my heart! And my other dog was whining and sitting by the door waiting for her :(. I cried like such a baby! I miss her but i know she is in good hands.

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I need the 27th to hurry and come already. Because my anxiety is literally over the moon

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I saw my little baby yesterday and the heartbeat was found ❤️ i cried happy tears

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Feeling nervous, worried, anxious. I’m going to my ob tomorrow for another ultrasound. Hopefully this time they are able to see anything at all. Last time they couldn’t but told me everything looked fine. I’ve been a little worried since then and I am just praying that everything is still okay when i go tomorrow. Any prayers would be appreciated ❤️

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I’m honestly really excited :)
I can’t wait til i start going to my appts and getting ultrasounds done. I can’t wait til i find out the sex so i can start buying baby clothes, the nursery decorating, everything! I’m just super excited!

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I told my husband, and he actually reacted waay different then i thought. After it was confirmed and i told him he got so happy and excited. It made me cry. He then told me “i know we weren’t ready but we will make the best of it” and a whole bunch of hearts. I love him, he is a great husband and i know he’ll be an even more amazing father. I just pray that this pregnancy goes well, and that i have a healthy baby :)

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My husband just left, and i just found out last night i’m pregnant. I should be jumping for joy but i’m actually in bed crying since yesterday. Idk how i feel right now. All i know is i’m sad. I’ve been wanting a baby for the longest with my baby fever so crazy but after the last time i ended up in the hospital i accepted the fact that it would come when it would come. But not this soon, not right now, i was okay with waiting. And this is all a surprised and im just freaking out. Only one person knows, i haven’t told my husband, or my family or his family. And i’m actually super scared of telling him that i am telling my mom. Idk how i’m gonna do it but all i pray to God is to give me the guidance that i need in this new path. Our first child and he is deployed. :( i’m a mess right now. I need all the prayers possible, so i can put myself back together and move on forward.

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Rant

Pretty fucking pissed. My husband deploys in just a few fucking days. We have an entire house to fucking pack up. He’s been working and so have I making it fucking difficult to get shit done. The little time he has I want to spend it together, but no. Fucking impossible. Always stuck doing shit for others, and in reality when he needs something no one EVER comes through for him. Meanwhile here he is, getting off work in a couple of hours only to come home change over and make a 3 hr drive to go pick one of his co-workers up from the airport. And i have to work the night shift today so I won’t even see him til i get home from work and by then he will be in bed already! LIKE WTF😡 I swear he is TOO nice. Like No, whenever you need a favor or something you always get turned down, no damn shame but yet you go out of your way to go help the same people that turn you down. Wtf is that?! Im so pissed i could punch a hole through someones throat.

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WHY THE FUCK

Why the FUCK WHY THE ACTUAL FUCKING FUCK. Why am i breaking out so damn bad on my chin, and theyre all under the skin, hurts like a bitch. And im starting to get pissed off now smh. Fuck this shit. Fuck it all fuck it fuck fuck

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I’m sitting on the toilet just scrolling through my instagram (i find my bathroom to be relaxing lol) and my husband walks in, butt naked, eyes closed and hops in the shower. Literally takes about .8 seconds to shower, gets out, eyes still closed drying himself and i’m just here watching him and then he says “hurry up, i can’t sleep without you” lol okay babe. 😂 i love him.

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